Confessions of a Gangster

As i sit here,
holding the burden of billion deaths
i think,
All this time i was walking with that gang 
not tool,but to hide
All the tattoos on my body has no meaning
its just a useless attempt to hide the scars of the past
The clothes and chains which i put on
is not to look cool,but to feel stronger
Every time i hold the gun up at someone
i tremble with fear
knowing that a gun was once held at me
Every time i pull the trigger
i feel the bullet pass through me
i feel the pain i'm making others go through
So here i am pretending to be someone i'm not
to runaway from my bitter past
to deceive others
and here i am left with nothing,
begging the creator for forgiveness and redemption
confessing to my sins
but why am i trying,
this just a hopeless prayer of a gangster

TRAPPED FOR EVER

My body is like a prison

and stuck in it i rot

Trapped in a jungle of thorns

i bleed waiting for help

begging for mercy i cry

Waiting for this torture to end

waiting for hells fury to calm down

Waiting in solitude,

lost in my thoughts

I wonder am i gonna die this way

Will they show me any remorse

Will i be saved?

From this world of hate rate???!!!!!

GIRL WITH A BLEEDING HEART...

A girl with a bleeding heart...

and a broken heart..

With shattered dreams 

and a hopeless life

Living in a lonely world

which leads to endless roads

Waiting for death to arrive

she waits alone.....

a change of heart

why am i ashamed of the feelings i have for you

why am i afraid of us?

why do i hesitate to look at you?

why do i hesitate to say your name?

why do i fear for what others might think of us?

why do i care how we look when you  hold my hand?

why do i push you off when you touch me?

that's not the feeling i had before...

i used to love to look at you

i loved to say your name all the time

i didn't car if we looked good or bad while holding hands

i was happy when you touched me..

felt like an ecstasy

then why did my heart change?

is it because of what others said at us?

well i don't want this anymore!!!

i want my heart to change back to what it was before

i want to stand by you and not care about what others has to say..

i want to fall in love with you allover again!!!

What is this feeling i have?...
Why does my heart beat so fast when it sees you?...
Why does my heart feel so restless when u leave me?
Why does my eyes want to see you all the time?
Why does my body want to feel you next to me?
Why does my lips want to feel your lips to touch them?
Why am i feeling so restless?
What is this....?
Is this L.O.V.E.....?

who are we?
what are we?
why are we trapped...
in this space of emptiness?
where the cries are left unheard......
where the tears which escapes our eyes
fades in to the inky darkness
where dreams are shattered
where happiness looses it's way
in the loneliness of life...........!